There are two things I know for sure: first, everyone is psychic, and second, no matter where you’re at in life or where you want to be, there is always the next right step that you know you need to take.
I believe intuition and even straight-up telepathy are built into our human hardware. We’re electrical beings swimming in a sea of vibes. Some people are better at interpreting these vibes than others, but I believe it’s something we all have the innate ability to get better at.
In my experience, my own intuition has always been quite strong, but throughout life, I’ve constantly been taught not to trust it. No matter how many times I was right with my predictions or vibe interpretations, the negative consequences of me being correct vastly outweighed any positives.
When I was a kid, I’d frequently intuit things that were so dead-on and inappropriate that adults would get upset. For example, when I was around 4, I accidentally outed a family member who was visiting with her “roommate” but was not out of the closet yet. I still have this vivid memory of feeling like everyone in the room knew they were a couple, so I didn’t understand why I was getting punished for saying what everyone knew.
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Other times, I’d tell people my parents were not my parents and the house we lived in was not my home. This created some pretty terrible scenarios with grocery store security guards and school counselors, but it was because I had memories of other lifetimes where I had different parents and different homes. I wasn’t trying to create chaos, I just genuinely struggled to feel “at home” in my childhood and felt like I was being honest when I’d say I wanted to “go back to my other home/family.” I assumed people would understand what I meant, but they definitely did not.
Another time, I told my mom some things about her mother, who had died when my mom was 8, that were very upsetting to her. After that, I started to consciously shut down my intuition by telling myself I was just making things up. Years later I found out that everything I’d said ended up being true.
Despite all this, I don’t consider myself a “psychic” any more than anyone else. I honestly think most people are getting the same information I am, they're just not trusting what’s coming to them or they’re unsure of how to translate the vibes they’re feeling into tangible information.
So often I even hear people say things that are clearly intuitive hits, then they actually happen and I’ll remind them that they predicted it, but they’ll discount it by saying, “Oh, it was just a lucky guess.” No, it wasn’t. We all have this ability and we’re using it all the time. It’s not rare or special. It’s as insane as thinking only some people have the Maps app on their phone. We all have it. It’s literally built-in. You may not be using it, but you can’t not have it.
One thing that I’ve learned about myself through astrology is that I’m highly Scorpionic and Plutonic. Both of these energies are about unearthing what lies in the darkness and bringing it to light. In my experience, the most notable intuitive hits I’ve gotten throughout my life are things that are secrets and/or things that people are not ready to hear or accept yet. So it makes sense that a significant amount of my early experiences with trusting my intuition resulted in tears, screams, or me getting yelled at.
If I’m being real, I also think the entire schooling process is one where we’re trained to divorce ourselves from what we intuitively know in favor of doing only what we're told so we can become good little workers who will forever obey all authority figures. We then enter a system in which our value as humans is graded according to how well we follow the rules and memorize external information. Once we’re locked into that system of only looking outward for answers and never going inward, that intuitive sense we’re born with starts to shrivel, like a muscle that’s no longer being used.
Being reliant on the external usually only gets you where you think you want to go and not where you’re actually meant to be. I tried that for most of my twenties and consistently found myself in places that I thought I wanted but was never truly happy in. That little internal voice was always in there trying to tell me where to go next, but I thought she was crazy and would lead me to total embarrassment.
I see this with people who describe feeling “cringe” after putting themselves out there. They’re trusting that little voice inside that’s telling them to try something different, but they’ve been so conditioned to think that voice is wrong that when they finally trust it, they assume everyone else is going to be disgusted or horrified. But no one is. And if for some reason they are thinking, “UGH, gross,” it doesn’t have anything to do with the person actually being cringe. It’s 100% always about that person’s own insecurities and fears being projected onto the other person.
I genuinely think every person I know who’s done something they’ve described as “cringe” is just listening to their internal guidance system and trusting it in exactly the way we’re all designed to do. In fact, all of the most successful writers, artists, and creatives I know are people who radically trusted their own inner voice over and over again, despite what anyone outside of them was saying.
I believe we all have that “next right step” that we know we should take, and the only reason we don’t is that we’re not trusting our own knowing or we’re afraid. We want more assurances that something good will happen before we make a move, but that’s not how life works. The carpet of reality only ever unrolls as far as the next step. You’re never going to see the entire path of where you’re going with total certainty.
You can let others decide your path for the rest of your life, or you can begin to radically trust the intelligence of your own consciousness and its integral connection. to the infinite intelligence of the universe. If it tells you to draw a picture of a duck in a spaceship, do an interpretive dance in the park, or write a manifesto about lizard people, then fucking do it. Do everything that little voice tells you to do with no regard for what anyone thinks of you and I swear to God your life will change in ways you can’t even imagine.
"The carpet of reality only ever unrolls as far as the next step." Damn, girl. This one got me.