Jul 26, 2022·edited Jul 26, 2022Liked by Chelsea Lockwood
I was walking outside in a lightning storm in Texas when I was a teenager and within several seconds there were a few bolts of lightning close enough to me to appear to be 3-dimensional. I thought about it for a moment and decided I should go inside. I hope you have that Yossarian moment (an obscure reference, unless you've read Catch-22) and suddenly see a wormhole out of Mexico and back to Trader Joe's! Much love, joely
I don’t know if it was a “sign,” but I do think it had purpose.
Of course I think *everything* has purpose, or at least function. Since you took ayahuasca, I’m sure that one thing you might have picked up is that everything is way more complex than we can ever imagine. In fact, you stated that.
I mean, think of the most multilevel novel plot ever, or one of the most complicated musical pieces: It’s amazing humans can conjure that kind of stuff, but even our little paint chip of the cosmos is a billion times more involved and intricate, yet it seems to work is harmony, for the most part, except when humans mess things up. We are the only species out of sync with nature.
I believe that both options you stated can be true: The lightning did something to your brain and you are now the perma-high-from-being-too-close-to-lightning girl AND it all makes sense.
You’re definitely going through something. I am not enlightened and not one to offer unsolicited advice, but I will generally say this: I think God understands your priorities, but those priorities may not all be God’s. Living closer to Trader Joe’s is easy. Living closer to Trader Chelsea is a lot harder, but you are infinitely closer than most people, including me. And BTW, most people only listen to pain. And you’re further down the path than most. That I’m sure of.
Make friends with your wounds; as you know, pain can teach us a lot.
I was walking outside in a lightning storm in Texas when I was a teenager and within several seconds there were a few bolts of lightning close enough to me to appear to be 3-dimensional. I thought about it for a moment and decided I should go inside. I hope you have that Yossarian moment (an obscure reference, unless you've read Catch-22) and suddenly see a wormhole out of Mexico and back to Trader Joe's! Much love, joely
Hi Chelsea,
Just a thought after I read your lightning piece:
I don’t know if it was a “sign,” but I do think it had purpose.
Of course I think *everything* has purpose, or at least function. Since you took ayahuasca, I’m sure that one thing you might have picked up is that everything is way more complex than we can ever imagine. In fact, you stated that.
I mean, think of the most multilevel novel plot ever, or one of the most complicated musical pieces: It’s amazing humans can conjure that kind of stuff, but even our little paint chip of the cosmos is a billion times more involved and intricate, yet it seems to work is harmony, for the most part, except when humans mess things up. We are the only species out of sync with nature.
I believe that both options you stated can be true: The lightning did something to your brain and you are now the perma-high-from-being-too-close-to-lightning girl AND it all makes sense.
You’re definitely going through something. I am not enlightened and not one to offer unsolicited advice, but I will generally say this: I think God understands your priorities, but those priorities may not all be God’s. Living closer to Trader Joe’s is easy. Living closer to Trader Chelsea is a lot harder, but you are infinitely closer than most people, including me. And BTW, most people only listen to pain. And you’re further down the path than most. That I’m sure of.
Make friends with your wounds; as you know, pain can teach us a lot.
I wish you peace and courage.
Be gentle with yourself,
Geo